Outcast.

So apparently when you leave a bad situation to better yourself, and come back; you're 'brand new'.... wait a minute..let me rewind.

I moved out of the projects in Brooklyn NY my senior year of high school, into a nice home in Charlotte NC(against my own will if I might add). I always went back to visit my old friends from time to time during vacations. I did that consistently until my sophomore year of college when I pledged. I think I went almost a year without visiting, dammit I was busy.!
so anyway I finally come back and of course I'm too pressed to be a delta and I was most certainly sporting all of my nalia. so one of my best friends though it might be funny to joke about it, since she obviously had no clear understanding of what it was and what it meant. So before getting upset, I say to myself: "just educate this girl before you get offended and let her know just how ignorant she really is" ... so I tried. i tried to explain to her that we don't just have beef with the AKA's, no we don't just step and no it is not a legal gang. Upon me wasting 10 minutes of my precious time trying to drop knowledge on my poor friend, she continues to disrespect my sorority. I use what humility I was taught and continue to ignore her. How big of me right? lol yea..
so just recently, maybe a week or two ago, I was back in my old hood caught in the same kind of situation. Sorry I can't help it if I don't take interest in ignorant shit like who's pregnant by who now and who my ex boyfriend is fucking these days. idk maybe I have better things to think about. So all of a sudden, some ass decided to tell me, I've changed. I went to college and now everything is college this and college that. Well excuse the fuck out of me. pardon me for trying to encourage people that I care about to do something other than be hood niggas and hoodrats ALL their life. excuse me for simply explaining that you don't have to have a 4.0 coming out of High school to make it out the hood. excuse me for being educated.
That had to be the most ridiculous shit i'd ever heard. but it is clear to me that 'hood' people are just that. they don't know anything other than the hood and if they do, they don't wanna know. they blame everyone for their current situation and that's just bullshit. I grew up in the projects, on the same low income as the people i grew up with. but thats not where I wanted to end my life. even if moms wouldve stayed in Brooklyn, I wouldve been out after graduation. But everybody else wants to get pregnant their senior year of high and never finish or get a g.e.d and sit up in their moms house in the projects for all eternity...not me. I've got bigger plans. But i'll keep coming back to visit, yup. I'll keep coming back until I finally see that there's just absolutely nothing more I can do to help my hood bitches....

"I made it out the hood now.."

Virginity. =0

So I'm kinda sorta new to this whole blog spot thing. seeing as how the only spot I've ever blogged before was on my own laptop, idk how comforting the idea of sharing my thoughts with the world(or whatever portion of it logs on to this website) will be. so i'll just do what I do best..

so im surfing bossip.com and up comes this extra homosexual video of spectacular(the most flaming member of pretty ricky) pelvic thrusting in what seems to be a pair of pink boy shorts. now I can't speak for all women, but i will take it upon myself to speak for the ones with some class: Nothing about a boney ass, countrified, big tooth man grinding his ass and hips in some pink underwear is sexy. maybe im wrong, idk. but i personally would never deal with a guy who could slow wine better than i can. there's just something wrong with that.

anywho.
where are all the good looking men(with no girlfriends) in the Carolinas?. Now i know better than to look for any in the raleigh area of NC but damn, are there none in the whole 2 states? smh, this shit is ridiculous. recession much! The few niggas wit jobs must be hiding out or shacked up some damn where. This drought is getting serious...
lol no but seriously. the good looking men are either dumb as hell or broke as hell; either way I'm not interested. and whats with the cute guys not packing? is there some unwritten rule that says you either get looks or a big dick...? wait an average sized dick. sheesh, it's like all the ugly dudes are walking around with 8 inches and better. ladies i guess it's time to start prioritizing huh? lol
hey hey.. don't judge me.. i'm just keeping it funky. a woman can only stay with a small brother for so long, unless she doesn't know any better...