12/23/10

eye to eye, staring into the face of the one you adore
the one who lifts your spirits, when demons are beating down your door
the one who completes you
until the end
your best friend
& now the end is at your door
staring you in the face through the eyes of the one you long for...
your worst enemy
speechless at the podium, as your audience awaits
anticipating the thoughts & feelings; you owe it to them
as they sit patiently
waiting
while every emotion is already written on the sleeve of a tear soaked t-shirt
blatantly
there's nothing left to say
everything that is, we made it that way
dreading the day that we'd reach the end
& although we promised we'd always be friends
I can't pretend
I can no longer fathom the energy
to fight for what's clearly out of our hands

Fire Bomb

I would cry, but my tear ducts have run desertly empty
My heart has never known a better pain
The effort
The strain
It exhausts me...sucking away the love & empathy lingering inside of me
Walking down a path marked for destruction, with gasoline
Beautiful flames surrounding me
Patiently waiting on my surrender to ignite
& as the heat rises, I can only wonder...
when this thing is ready to blow
& this beautiful fire finally takes flight
How many flames will it take
before all the pain finally burns away...

"I just want to set you on fire, so I won't have to burn alone...
then you... then you'll know where I'm coming from...Fire Bomb."