Can anybody hear me?

emotions working overtime. thoughts running crazy. it’s like my systems exhausted. my hearts feeling lazy. I am too tired to love. besides, what has love gotten me? choking before my thoughts can be spoken. sometimes I forget to breathe. so many words needed to be said. but I do not possess telepathic power. your thoughts cannot be read. so I continue sitting in silence. hour after hour. so many words that I need to say. I start to speak & then I think. what would change if you picked my brain? nothing. & to my list of needed to do things, what's added is reduction. an abnormal cycle; similar to destruction. I'm rushing. searching for a place to hide. where no one could witness the tears that I cried. & to myself I lied. said I would never do this again. but here I am, alone. in need of a friend. so who can I run to? when my options are at an end. I needed you to understand, just wanted you to see. but I'm speaking & no one's listening. can anybody hear me?