FREEDOM.

Televisions on but i can't process the images on the screen. I'm sitting here feeling a feeling like I'm never heard nor seen. I just want to feel love, I was born to love. But I'm just a person, a girl, a woman in vain. I'm hurting over & over again. help me understand. I look in the mirror at an unfamiliar face. feels like someone came in & took my place. Who is this? maybe you can help me, help me to understand. but you're just a person, a boy..almost a man. staring out my window listening for the wind. dreaming of some days when there's nothing left to do but win. but I love you. & that feels like a sin. Why do I love you. why do I want you. who are you? my vision is blurred. these tears make it hard for me to see. you're similar to these demons. keeping me awake at night. you're no good for me. still I see no one else in sight. my worst enemy is my best friend. I did this to myself not once, but twice & now I'm doing it again. I truly love the rain. but why must it come with so much pain. I'm calling out for you. but instead you're calling for them. plain as day. written in ink. posted on a billboard. our hearts will never be in sync. never beating on one accord. still I pull & hold on. but this heart of mine's not so strong. I just want to be loved. I am NOT a woman scorned. I want to be loved. appreciated. as i appreciate this feeling. I'm unsure of the right time to give up. but something here, its got me stuck. my heart is on the floor. there's nothing left. I gave it all to you. even my last breath. I simply beg of you. for nothing but freedom. i don't know who you are. but you are hurting me. you said you never would. I thought you were the one. what have you done?