Ashamed.

feels like falling on your face
in a crowded, but strange place
& then falling down again.
no family. no friends.
not even an old companion just to help.
embarassed by my self
knees soaked with blood
head down
while tears fall fiercely to the ground
making absolutely no sound
no screams. no weep
only the whisper of a soul slithering outside of me
screaming to me for protection
scolding me for the neglect when ive already warned me
not to avoid myself
& now i need help
in saving me from myself