Bliss.

& I’m right back where I began; confused and unaccompanied. It’s as if this feeling is haunting me. In search of an escape I attempt to find sleep, but I can feel it in my dreams. Distress so powerful I can’t move my mouth to even speak..so I remain silent. Harboring these evil thoughts, imprisoning my tears. Afraid that if I weaken, I’ll be forced to face my deepest fears. I’m scared. Scared to move in fear of falling further down into a hole I created all on my own. Digging deeper with each and every attempt to free these thoughts. I stumble over my own emotions. Right doesn’t exist within the 2-dimensional walls of my heart. Unable to open, I remain shut. So tight that I scream out, for no one in particular. Laying in my bedroom naked of any light. Listening to the sweet sound of the rain. Alone with my reality & the comfort of this pain.