Crawl.

In complete darkness..
I take a step forward
The initial step toward believing
Believing that my sanity hadn’t disappeared with my trust
& that faith is still alive & well inside my heart.
I stumble
& as I take a look around, everything seems clear to continue
So I take two steps
And as my foot touches the ground, I feel revived.
Each step releasing the grip held on by my pride
& then finally
I walk a straight line…
Hoping and praying that maybe this time, I’d get it right.
It’s like taking a shot in the dark
No light.
Wishing for a specific action
Only that’s not the way things happen
& that next step leaves me staggering
Crashing to the floor
Only I no longer feel the once throbbing pain…
I’m numb
& I realize it comes with the procedure.
So I smile
& even though
I know, it’ll be awhile
I remind myself: I’m still only a child
Reassuring myself that I will learn to walk again
& when I do, I’ll walk miles.